Have you ever relived a moment over and over for way too long, trying to figure out how you could have better handled it? It becomes an obsession. It consumes you and affects the way you interact with people for the time being.
Months [or more] may pass before it doesn’t overwhelm your idle thoughts? Yeah, me too. I call it the spiral, and I’ve been there so often that I have a condo, furnished and ready for me to take up residence whenever my brain chooses to go there.
I’m a people pleaser, an overthinker, and always anxious. Growing up I had a bad problem with my mouth saying things faster than my brain could stop me. Inevitably, that led to lots of embarrassment. Now, as an adult, I carefully measure my words before they come out…well, usually. From social media posts to real-life conversations, the fear of that self-inflicted embarrassment still lingers.
Maybe that’s why this blog took so long to create.
What would people who know me in real life think? The thought of making it anonymous danced around in my brain for a while, but it finally hit me. If I am going to do it, I’m going to be unapologetic about it. After all, I have notes in my phone from years’ worth of thoughts that I needed to get out. From motherhood to work to just general thoughts, there’s a little bit of everything.
So whether you’ve known me for years, or this is our first time meeting, hi buddy! I have so much to share, so stay tuned.
